SUPER SPECIAL DOUBLE TAKE!

Mood:Confused
Days Left Until Limited Wardrobe Tour Kick Off:15
Song of Choice:"I Feel So" by Box Car Racer/"Where have you been?" by Reel Big Fish
Topic:Flashbacks/ Life is Case sensitive

Yeah those suck too...well you know thanks to everyone who hit the comment box muchas gracias whoever asked where I met this boy it was through a friend, Cat was righ he doesn't hate me and we had a nice conversation last night, but sadly it started off with old problems...everyone remembers the Angel right(the ass hole that kinda fades in and out of my life...finally get over him take interest in the boy I mentioned yesterday and look!) if not reference back a bit and you'll find him well here's what's happening now...in number order as it occurs to me...
1)well...um...Quita called today and Iwas happy enough then she goes Doud wants you to call him
2)and I was like okay andI thought about it for a really long ass time then I finally called
3)Heart racing throat dry all messed up
4)Then when he picks up the phone and he thought I was the girl he use to be going out with my friend you know
5)and then I was like no
6)and he was like who
7)and i was like you should know you asked me to call
8)so he's like OMg
9)and he was quiet for a long ass time
10)and was like I didn't thin k you were going to call
11)and I go I wasn't going to
12)and he goes then why did you
13)and I said to give you the benifit of a doubt and let you explain yourself
14)all this time he's sniffin like he gettin ready to cry
15)and I have almost no feeling in my voice or at least I'm trying to
16)then he starts to apologize
17)and oh my god it tok everything I had not to cry because he startedto'
18)then when he quieted down I told him I forgave him and he just like I love you so much and his voice cracked so bad
18)oh man and then I asked him if he felt better
19)and he said no he said he felt like a shitty human being and he said he knew I didn't believe him
20)and I told him I didn't have a reason to and he said he wished I would
21)and well I told him I didn't have any ill will toward him adn he didn't have to live with regrets and thatit was okay
22)and he was like no it isn't cause I didn't believe him
23)and well I told him to get a kleenx
24)and well....um..he siad he was going to make me believe him when he saw me
25)and he said that he thought about me all the time and that he almost called and almost came over and almost wrote me a million times
26)and well then he had to go
27)so yeah I got off i hadn't cried I'd just been kinda totally messed up adn then I put in the Link PArk Cd put on in the end washed my hair and cried

See now I'm owndering if it really happened I don't know I don't know I wanted to cry so bad when I was talkin to him but damn one of us had to keep it together and geezeI hope he didn't take it like I didn't care God I felt so bad because it wasn't me that made him cry it was his own self loathing I mean what the hell am I suppose to do whether he cares or not I'm still moving I'm not suppose to talk to him at all if my parents knew what was going down good GOD
God he sounded so happy when I told him I forgave him
I asked him and what if I've moved on huh?
and he was like then I guess I'll have ot accept it
he put my needs in front of his for the first tiem his word is his bond always has been
AHHHHH I JUST DON't KNOW!!!
Oh and now games is in route to PR and I'm scared the palin will crash...man probelms don't come alone do they? They have to pile up like Hamlet said....grrr anybody every body feel free to write me an essay about what you think of all this...cause I have to go see him the 3rd and I'm about ready to s!nap

Later that Day...say...1ish...

Life is case sensitive...After the previous stuff right...I turn on the Tv which is usually on this radio/ tv station kinda like MTV but just music...well this song was on..."Where have you been?" by Reel Big Fish now I'd like to share with you guys their lyrics and you tell me what God is tryin to tell me...

You called me up last night in tears
Said you missed me after all these years
I been waiting here so long
I've gotten over it since you've been gone

You called me late last night again
said you finished with your new boyfriend
Asked if you could come back home
So sorry that you left me all alone

Well You say you love me
love me agian
but if you love me
where have you been?

you say you need me more than anyone else
well go to hell
where have you been?

you showed up at my door today
said my friend why do you push me away
your life with him was just so dull
but what we had was something wonderful

Well You say you love me
love me agian
but if you love me
where have you been?

you say you need me more than anyone else
well go to hell
where have you been?

NO WAY!
YOU WISH!
I don't need this!
What makes you think I ever want you again?

And
Yeah right!
As if
I don't need this!
What makes you think I ever want you again?

You called me late last night again
said you finished with your new boyfriend
Asked if you could come back home
So sorry that you left me all alone

Well You say you love me
love me agian
but if you love me
where have you been?

you say you need me more than anyone else
well go to hell
where have you been?

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